Black Dog Island (Black Dog Island 2017)
In 2008 I suffered a breakdown/burnout.. whatever you want to call it. It was like no other sickness that I had ever had before. Nothing like a pain or a break this was totally different. So different that I knew I was unwell and didn’t know what was wrong with me or how to fix myself. I remember it being the lowest I was ever in my life and even the simplest of tasks like washing and small chores daily became so hard to do. I’m writing a biograph at the moment that will give you the full story if your interested in learning about dealing with ‘’Black Dog’’ depression, but for now I’ll introduce the song.
I was diagnosed with deep depression ‘’The Black Dog’’ and this songs tells about part of my Journey through it. From marriage breakdown to building a wall to protect myself at the same time saying if I come around you can help me break this wall down , again about the ‘’black dog’’ cloud that surrounded me every day of my life. My depression was terrible in the mornings and lifted most evenings and I tried sleeping through it all day to get some relief. The Lyric’s, never come to call me to awake me to my hell when I laugh and smile you know it all for show. Of course people can’t see the pain and hurt, it doesn’t show like any other sickness … so there where days I took part in trying to mix but it was shear hell for me so I put on a face and smiled and people couldn’t see the difference. My life biography tells the full story and how I recovered. It wasn’t easy but I got there. I still go through small phases but nothing like I had. If your ill with black dog , you need to educate yourself about the illness empowering yourself with knowledge for recovery.
Lyrics:
KEY: [AM]
VERSE 1:
NEVER SAY I LOVE YOU IF THE FEELING IS NOT THERE
FROM DAY TO DAY THIS CLOUD CONSUMES MY HEAD
NEVER TRY TO FIX ME WHEN YOU KNOW IM FEELING SCARED
WHEN EVENING COMES IM STILL LYING IN MY BED
YOU SEE I’VE BUILT A WALL AROUND MY ISLAND A ISLAND ON MY OWN
AND I STRUGGLE FOR SURVIVAL I’M LIKE A SONG WITHOUT A SOUL
AND IF I EVER COME AROUND
YOU CAN HELP ME BREAK IT DOWN YOU CAN HELP ME BREAK IT DOWN
NEVER WALK OUT FROM MY LIFE BUT WERN’T WE BORN TO DIE
EACH DAY STILL ENDS AS LONELY AS MY LAST
NEVER SAY FOREVER CAUSE FOREVER MEANS GOODBYE
AND I’M SAD TO SAY THIS CLOUD MIGHT NEVER PASS
NEVER COME TO CALL ME FOR TO AWAKE ME TO MY HELL
WHEN I LAUGH AND SMILE YOU KNOW IT’S ALL FOR SHOW
NEVER ASK ABOUT THE SCARES AND DID I HIDE THEM WELL
NOTHING MAKE ME HAPPY I’M STILL LOW
