In 2008 I suffered a breakdown/burnout.. whatever you want to call it. It was like no other sickness that I had ever had before. Nothing like a pain or a break this was totally different. So different that I knew I was unwell and didn’t know what was wrong with me or how to fix myself. I remember it being the lowest I was ever in my life and even the simplest of tasks like washing and small chores daily became so hard to do. I’m writing a biograph at the moment that will give you the full story if your interested in learning about dealing with ‘’Black Dog’’ depression, but for now I’ll introduce the song.

I was diagnosed with deep depression ‘’The Black Dog’’ and this songs tells about part of my Journey through it. From marriage breakdown to building a wall to protect myself at the same time saying if I come around you can help me break this wall down , again about the ‘’black dog’’ cloud that surrounded me every day of my life. My depression was terrible in the mornings and lifted most evenings and I tried sleeping through it all day to get some relief. The Lyric’s, never come to call me to awake me to my hell when I laugh and smile you know it all for show. Of course people can’t see the pain and hurt, it doesn’t show like any other sickness … so there where days I took part in trying to mix but it was shear hell for me so I put on a face and smiled and people couldn’t see the difference. My life biography tells the full story and how I recovered. It wasn’t easy but I got there. I still go through small phases but nothing like I had. If your ill with black dog , you need to educate yourself about the illness empowering yourself with knowledge for recovery.